Well..suddenly just have the mood for blogging….although I had a long one yesterday.

 

I think the friendships I have in my current class is growing.. we laugh......we joke.....we even have 2 continuous frutsal outing….which was really surprising for me.. few months ago... I would not even dream of playing with them so many times.....

 

I also have involved myself a lot in the youth section of sjba activities........hanging out with them is something I enjoy the most..... although they are only acquaintances....i did not feel awkward at all..... and trust me...... if you have a bad week or feeling seriously emo.. follow me to the temple for our young seekers gathering ...... because at the end of the session...... all those negative thoughts and feelings just simply vanish....... It worked so many times for me........

 

But I'm still pondering........ I have no idea why they put so much trust in me…. I was asked to lead the logistic department for tdc….and previously they have never witness my capabilities, yes.. my enthusiasm was evident…..but was that truly enough to gain their trust ?? I left that question unanswered and focus on my role as a logistic…..and was determined to help them as much as I can….. because such trusts are rarely given to me.....and I definitely wish not to disappointed those who have faith in me….

 

And with YS 15 anniversary concert just 6 months away....... I certainly hope I can contribute as much as I can…..

 

 My desire to have a close friend… one that I'm really comfortable with…. Is growing each day… I have 2 and I really appreciate their patience and kindness….. but now….1 is so far away and another is so busy with her stuff……..

 

I hope the 3^rd will appear anytime soon……

 

 

 

 

Well….havent been blogging for a while….

 

I attended the young seekers gathering on a Friday night…..and they were watching a movie title – the secret .  the movie teach us about the law of attraction ( which is the secret )…. In which when if you yourself is happy and always have positive thinking….. you will attract all the positive things around the world……. In other words….always be happy and you will find a lot of pleasant events unfolding around you.    Simple enough ???

 

And of course…. They also mentioned that if you want something…..there are 3 simple step….

 

Step 1 : ask

Step 2 : believe

Step 3 : receive

 

I’ll give you an example….. if you want something like a hand phone…. Just wish and believe that you will get it ( I quite blur now coz the movie its like 2 weeks ago so )  and then…… sooner or later you will get what you desire…..  you have to believe that no matter how impossible It may seems…. Your dream will come true …..

 

I myself have never experience such miracles…. But I realized in a way it is true….  If you do not believe in yourself….. no matter how hard you try….how much effort you put in….. it is as bad as not trying at all…..because what is the point trying when you know you cant succeed?

 

and by making a wish, it is actually a source of motivation. If you wish to learn Japanese , then you wouldn’t mind all the troubles of asking your friends, scouting for a Japanese language center, and paying up the fees. It actually motivate you to achieve your dreams.

 

The Secret have taught me well to have your own unshakeable confidence within yourself….. before you want to channel all your energies and focus on your dreams…..first….have faith in yourself….and that is how ordinary people like us can achieve the extraordinary… just by simply believing…

 

Should you face any troubles or misfortunes…… move on….. all those are just minor inconvenience…. If you believe in yourself…. Nothing will dent your hope…..

 

 

I always thought blogging will help me express myself better…… but sadly….. it did little to aid me….. there is so much I want to say….but there is only so much I can blog…. Yea you are right……part of the reason is because of friends who are viewing my blog., and others who stumble upon this blog….. I have share many memorable memories with my close friends…. But I too,  cant escape having conflicts with my friends…..and it is those thoughts and unpleasant memories that hinder me from expressing myself fully…..    Had I blog about all the unwanted memories…. I will not find blogging reveling…… because you will not know how your friends would react ….. will they be angry simply because you had spill the mistakes they err to the whole world??

Or will they appreciate what you have done??

 

 But keeping it within yourself too will not bring any measure of comfort…….you hid the past , hoping you will never remember it….. but flashback do occur most of the time…..

I was once a guy who likes to keep everything to myself……and when you cant take the burden anymore…. You will burst everything out in one go..….. and it is never an enjoyable feeling… nor a sight to anyone who witnessed it.

 

Now that I had learnt my mistake of course ….. I am beginning to share with people I’m comfortable with….. of course I have to balance between keeping it to myself or sharing with people…… but one should never side another more than the other….. telling my friends not only lighten my burden…. It also acts as a reminder to you about the mistakes u done…. And it also allow you the opportunity to recall and think rationally about the events that occurred….

 

I have yet to find a friend so close that whatever mistake I made…he/she/she will say it almost instantly, never delaying what he/she/she felt he should say……because if u found someone who truly understand you…. Wouldn’t life be better??

 

I hope you understand what I’m trying to say…. Because I know how awful it is to keep everything within yourself……this blog was wrote without any ill intention….and I hope it was not offensive….because after all…it was just my thoughts…….heh….

 

Caioz…

 

 

Today….. was just the perfect day I was anticipating….only to end exactly opposite of what I expected…

 

Well….i went to ICLS ( a place where I learn my Japanese ) … and I thought we have a 2 hours revision before the examination…. BUT…..BUT…BUT…..the exams started 5 minutes after I entered….. well…not too bad….because now that I have passed….yes…PASSED my favourite language….. I was glad it started early and ended early too….nyahahahahaha…..

 

The cert was like instant….and yeah…I was happy to get yet another cert ….

 

 

Then here comes my shopping……. I was stuck in the jam for 45 minutes when I was entering pyramid….. I have no idea why suddenly everyone just likes to flood pyramid….

Transformers ??? The cute ice skating competition?? 

 

 Ok here is the funny part….. I enter the shopping mall parking entrance…..so after collecting the parking tics…. I was about to turn and find my parking when a weird guard just open up those cute little stuff that blocked a pathway and told me to turn left….. I thought wow cool…..then I drove all the way up and just follow the road although I somehow realized something was really wrong ...

 

Then I found a parking in less than 5 mins…judging from the amount of expensive cars going in pyramid….. I must be very lucky I wondered…. And once I went into one of the door ( which is an entrance ) ….i was lost…..   I do not know where the hell I ended up… or where that weird guard led me to….

 

Its was kinda hotel-ish like building…. So I went in the lift…. With some aunties…. And I did not know which level I should go…. So I went out again….and I noticed a malay family….. was heading somewhere… they looked like they was heading to pyramid and they do know the way there… so I followed……went up to floors and ended up the building next to the hotel…..

 

Great ….. another extra mile……. That weird guard must have been playing a fool with me…..

 

 

So finally….i have reached pyramid through the convention center…..  well…. Without wasting any time…..i went straight to the sports shop near the ice skating ring….. Obviously…. I had to glance at those ice skaters….damn they are so cute……..

 

I quickly search for the shoe that I picked the day before……. And those salesdude or those boys-that-were-suppose-to-layan-me were nowhere to be seen…..so I went up to the counter and asked for my size….. he told me “dude, this is the last pair ( size 8 )…” 

…so again … me…. Put it back the shoe rack and I opt for another shoe….and still…those-boys-that-were-suppose-to-layan-me-AND-always-standing-nearby-so-i-can-call-them cant be found ….i went up to the counter…. He told me….”this is the last pair, dude” …

 

Ok I was like crap…..i choose another wan….. and AGAIN…   “dude…the last pair” ….

I mean…. Is that sports shop so popular that everyone will shop there whenever they have the cash…. Or they are just so lazy to stock up more???  I choose again….and he answered the same thing…. And finally the 5^th pair……by the time… I spotted one of those boys-that-were-blablabla-me and called him…. And yes…. I got a pair of shoe….it was my 5^th choice……damn…and it was the last pair….

 

So hey…..20 minutes of shopping….not bad……and so….i went up to mcd and buy my lunch……I saw 4 counters…..( yeah cool huh…. 4 counters ..coz normally 2 mar ) …….but 4 long queues…… oh well… I lined up anyway…. Then there was 1 worker in mcd was like so depressed  ..i even heard her saying…..” saya mau mati “ …. I mean she was so emo….. ( heh luckily every1 was so busy to notice her…except me….. if not…the managers will kick her ass for such behaviour ) then 1 manager dude ask her to open another counter… she took the tray ( $$ inside ) and  slightly slam it…. Adjust those straw holder with unnecessary “extra” forces….. and call… “eh , come” …HELL NO  I am going to order my food from her man….. so I just stood there and let others go…muahahahaah…… my cashier is way more kind and gentle soul……

I think I waited like 20 mins for my turn… I tried that supreme fish….and it took another 15 mins for burger to be done……..

 

 

What a day….

 

 

 

 

But wait…my nightmare is not over….i went out to my car….and found myself stuck in a jam ….just before the exit……

 

I hand over the parking tics to the guy….and he put it in….and there was a little space between the car in front of me and that-thing-that-were-suppose-to-close-when-ur-car-pass-through. I did not want to take the risk…. But soon…that dude was knocking on my car and told me to go….. damn… I went and when that-thing-that-were-suppose-to-close-when-ur-car-pass-through  close…..it was barely inches away from my car…..damn…

 

Then from the hotel exit…..i was stuck in my car from like 1 hour….AND FINALLY REACHED HOME…

 

Seriously…. That pyramid shopping mall has something against those innocent, kind, handsome, cute, perfect guys that want to shop…. I just wanted a pair of shoe…. Look at all the trouble I have been through..

 

But the weird thing is…..i’m not angry or frustrated …. I’m just laughing at all the things that happen today…funny day….

 

Maybe next time I need to call gals to shop with me…… then that pyramid shopping mall will be kind in their ways of treating  an innocent, kind, handsome, cute, perfect guys that want to shops…eheeeh

 

Hope its interesting…sim ee…

ok  lets just start by posting my exam result ( semester exam )

chem 74
Math  82
Pysics  80
Econs  73
Tks      68


Notice how many a2 i got..... but damn this is a level..... where there is only an A and no A2.....so overall ....  2A3B   76-100 is A..... look how close am i to get 4 As!!! ...arghghghg


hmm im quite satified with my exam result.... heh..... jugding the amount of effort i put in for this semester exam.. i actaully did quite good.....   i did not want to score so well in the first ever examination i took in college..... because i did not want to be over-confident..... secondly..... these results will only push me harder to strive for full As.....  and that's a promise....


well.....the next time i post my exam result.... it will definitely be higher than what i obtained today..  and that is how i work my way up to be the best....

今天，我回到我的中校去看看我的朋友们，顺便帮他们准备明天的installation.  

 

看到我的年青朋友总于做到了委员会 , 我觉得很光荣和老，光荣因为我有两个好朋友当了委员会，而且他们真的deserve这个        ， 老因为他们个个都是十六岁，我呢？ Hiazz….

 

想当年， 我并不后悔我没答应  ， 而是觉得 内疚，   因为浪费了这个机会 ， 我并不能帮他们举办活动。但是，如果 只是帮他们我就要参加，我觉得不必要这么做。

 

 

I shall continue in another blog….its late and really frustrating typing Chinese when I obviously lost touch.  

 

But….im not giving up…

 

 

わたし きょわあるいてがくせえいきま。それからわたしわうちえきます。

 

 

 

今天， 我跟自己答应， 从今天以后， 我将会好好地学会华语。 因为第一…  我突然间发觉华语其实是个有趣的语言。二，中国将会发展正一个强壮的国家， of course 对我来讲，是个很好的好处。

 

Therefore  ， 各位朋友，你将会读到一点点的华语在我的blog 里面 in the future。

 

谢谢大家的支持。

 

He stood there …. Unwilling to retreat…. He held his hand high up each time a train passed by… hoping for someone affluent and kind enough to give him a ride…. To a far away land he dreamt of … which promises unending wealth and comfy lifestyle…..

 

Is this all he truly wants?? He wasn’t sure of himself too….. He looked around … many kids were also mimicking him …. Unsatisfied …begging for pity … And clearly have no directions in life….    

 

He was so sick of his life…. He doesn’t want to wear rags…  He doesn’t want to stay in a hut…. He wished not to eat corns and breads every meal….. He wants something more than these……

 

But what he failed to notice… is how lucky he truly was…..

 

He was unaware of a group of boys playing football….. yes they were wearing rags… but does it matter ??? they enjoy their game … they were content of what they have…. Life was a bliss to them….

 

He was oblivious of the fishermen family….. yes they were living in a hut… but the father doesn’t mind… as long as they had a shelter …  a shelter that could provide warmth and fend off strong winds and heavy downpour…. And they were satisfied…..

 

He did not notice the farmer on the other end…. Yes they only had corns and breads for their meals…. But as long as they did not starve … they were grateful…..

 

He did not spot a butcher just down the street…. He worked all day long but his earnings were little…. But as long as he can support his little family … he was happy….

 

The boy was ignorant that beyond his little town he dwelled…. There were other villagers that were not so lucky…. Where people living in a hut is considered rich …. Where food are considered a luxury rather than a necessity….. where the only precious thing they owned are their clothes …. Where being able to stay healthy devoid of any sickness is a blessing itself…… And staying alive just for 1 more day is a miracle…..

 

And still…. He wish he had more …. Despite having so much luck…..

 

So…. If U think you are very unlucky to live here…. U  can rant and rave all you want … but please remember …. U are only comparing your luck to 1 % of the whole population of the world …..  99 % more are underprivileged and obviously not so lucky….

 

weee.... holidays !! but....streamyx is so noob that i need to stone in my house....

SIGH...!!! NOOB STREAMYX!!!!!



everyone is working so  hard now..... its like they suddenly have this motivation to work hard now and be successful later..... as for me...... i so motivated right now!!!  after listening to tales of ordinary people attempt to achieve the extraordinary.......i want to be 1 of them!!!

so 2day june the 17th...... i had uninstalled dota AGAIN....after reinstall a week ago....
and instead of wasting my time playing dota...here is what i gona do....

1 ) improve my jap chinese n eng
2 ) learn myob, excel and word ... ( advance level )
3 ) involve myself more ini ys of sjba
4 ) read more books.....
5 ) bond with friends....

yea......... so no DOTA...


thats a promise.....  anyone find me playing dota anywhere can just give me a tight slap...... i will not retaliate.... promise!!!

i have no idea why i have this foreboding feeling....

its like nothing i think of is something gud..... and i have to forced myself to stop and think of something gud...



hmmmmmm

guess its not that a big deal..... izit???

Hey world!!

 

The little boy…..

 

Looking forward for the upcoming holidays…… and semester exam…..

 

Not worried although he seriously did little preparation for it….

 

Really proud of himself for his wonderful work as logistic …….

 

Happy because he met new friends…. Some of them who he will remember them forever for what they had done for him……

 

Starting to plan for YS 15 anniversary concert…..

 

Scouting for friends that can work WITH him as stage managers…..

 

Really frustrated because streamyx have not been kind to him for the past few days….

 

Wondering if there is any friends’ birthday of his fall on this month….

 

Miss tanjung at usj 9

 

Putting a lot of effort in his studies….for now..

 

Planning his holiday schedule…

 

Miss Japanese class….

 

Miss chatting with a few of his friends….

 

Wants to play DOTA after his semester exam…. Or during his semester exam…

 

Playing naruto online!!!